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2018 Word. Of. The. Year.

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But first!

We have a little announcement to make.


Say "hello" to Chicheme Jordan.
He was my Christmas present that I got on Thanksgiving Day, and I couldn't be anymore grateful for his fluffy self.  Cosita is less thrilled, but we're confident that they'll be good friends some day!



With that out of the way, it's time to get on to the business of new years and new words.
2017's year was BEYOND  And it suited the year perfectly.  I did ugly love.  I did lose fear and try new things.  It was a year of highs and lows I never expected.  It was truly beyond expectation.
As I thought about this year, I was trying to decide between ponder and joy.  Neither word excited me, but I felt drawn to choose between the two of them.  As I asked the Lord, He gave me a new word.  I told him, "no" to his word because no one picks a word like that.
Since I refused to go with His word, He told me to ponder joy.  Really, Jesus- ponder joy?  First that sounds completely clich…

Camilla.

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(This is bragging.  Be forewarned.  I like my kids.  They're not perfect, but I am a huge fan of them.)


(She's standing in front of a drawing on her poster.  She doesn't have a hair thing on- just looks like it)

Today, Camilla's class did a "wax museum" project where they presented about their leader.  The leader they chose had to come from their home country.  When she was originally assigned the project, Camilla was kind of stumped.  She doesn't have huge American history knowledge, and she was having trouble coming up with people.  I mentioned George Washington.  She wrinkled up her nose and said, "Mom- he's great, but he's so George Washington."  Seems like a reasonable argument??  So, she thought a bit more and decided she wanted to be the Rev. Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.  I told her that I thought it was solid choice.  (Had I known she had to dress like him for the presentation, I might have gone with someone different...)

When I g…

I HAVE MY COMPUTER BACK!!!

Finally.  Died on October 5th.  Just got it back which sounds terrible except the process required a friend taking it to the US and sending it to my mom.  My mom sent it to Dell who fixed it and sent it back.  My mom then sent it to Florida to my friend who I was visiting over Veteran's Day weekend. 

In light of that, I got my computer back really quickly!

So much has happened.  So much to blog.  Stay tuned!!

Gratitude

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So, I missed blogging on my birthday because my hard drive on my brand-new-in-July computer crashed.  It crashed on my actual birthday.  That's just not ok.


But the day ended up still being super great, and the computer is under warranty, so we'll probably all be ok.


Speaking of being okay, I've learned something over the past few weeks.  Gratitude breeds gratitude.


I'm Captain Obvious, I know, but it's just become so apparent to me that the more time I spend thinking about being grateful, the more I realize there is to be grateful.  And, the more time I spend thinking about gratitude, the more I realize that I'm really so very minute in this world.  My life is total vapor-rific.  And, the more I recognize my own insignificance in the grand scheme of life, the more my heart opens to see more clearly how great God the Father is.  It really is the coolest paradigm.


And, today, I had another opportunity to sit back and just try not to explode with gratitude.


Today…

38 364/365

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Tomorrow's my birthday.
I love celebrating birthdays and not just mine.  I love making a big deal out of birthdays.
This year, I have a special appreciation for the milestone of my birthday.
And, I can't really explain it.  
Maybe it is looking at the heartbreak in Las Vegas, or
Maybe it's seeing the destruction of Hurricane Harvey, or Irma, or Maria, or the earthquake in Mexico.
It could be just an "I'm getting older" thing.
Also possible is that the Lord has spoken to my heart in a different way.
But this year, this birthday, I'm walking into October 5 with a sense of total amazed gratitude.

You know those moments when your heart is so full that you are fairly convinced it will explode, and you are totally okay with that because the love is too much to carry?  That was this picture. As you can see, Carson is in his basketball uniform having a piano lesson.  Pretty mundane, yes?
It's what you don't see in this picture that makes my heart happy.  …

It's the Little Things...

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Just feeling the need to rejoice in the little things this afternoon...

~Carson hasn't had a migraine in a few weeks.         I didn't share about those because I was so angry he was having them.  My life has been forever altered my migraines, and I didn't want him to walk that road.  He had one in the spring, but then he had 3 in 5 days at the beginning of the month.  Every step I've taken toward clinging to Jesus turned into rage that the Father would allow this for my son.  Carson is doing better; Jesus and I are, too.
~My boss prays for me.       I've made no secret of the fact that this school year has been terrible for me.  The vast majority of that has been my reactions to events- my mental place.  Regardless of the reasons, it's been a difficult year.  Today, I had a meeting with my boss, and she asked me a pointed question about stuff going on in my life.  She looked me in the eye.  And, I instantly knew she cared.  Yes, she has some vested interest in…

I have no idea...

As I'm scrolling through Facebook tonight (when was the last time I had time to do that), I'm again reminded once again that I have no idea how forever works.

I look at people's pictures of their forever homes and their forever dreams coming true, and I realize my life works in moments.

Tony has been in the US this week.  He's been having meetings and networking.  He calls at night (or 5 times a day like today) with updates about what our tomorrow looks like.  Sometimes the tomorrow is two years away.  Sometimes tomorrow really is tomorrow.

I try not to reel from it all.  My stomach churns, and my heart races.  I've cried and yelled.  I've tossed and turned.  I get ready in the morning and try to cover the emotions of the night before in layers of makeup.  I teach history with my mind racing to wonder what the next page of my story will look like.  My kids come home and tell me about their days, and all I can do is ponder what the next day holds.

Sometimes, I l…

What A First Week! And Whales!

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Last week, the first week of school, was something else.  Something like terrible.  Really, really bad. I wanted to quit.  The irony of that is not lost on me.  I wanted to quit when the Lord had already given me the word to finish well.  Nice, Lisa.

Saturday, we were scheduled to go whale watching because when we went last year, it was miserable weather, and we barely saw whales.  Even with that, it was an amazing time, but I wanted to try again and have whales and sun!  My family had almost zero interest.  Coralynn was all in, but everyone was else was on the spectrum ranging from "heck no" to "I guess I could muster the will to go."

So, I scheduled the trip.

Quick aside:  I'm a pushy person.  And I don't like to miss out on life.  This combination means that once I've made the decision to go find whales, you had better believe that we're looking for whales.

Of course, rainy season decided to start in July, so the weather has been miserable.  I k…

New Year's #2

One of the things I love most about our crazy expat life is that we get what feels like a second New Year's Eve.  We complete the school year in June, and then we take a break from life and vacation during July.  We return to the US and do whatever we want.  (Or whatever we can do around the kids' camps!)

I'll share some of my favorite moments about those soon, but tomorrow, 2017 part 2 starts. Tomorrow is the first full day of school for my students. Life is officially off pause.  Music lessons have started. Panamanian traffic has returned.  There's no sleeping in or staying up late.  Hopefully, exercise will come back soon.

I love the fresh feeling.  I love the new start.  I love all the potential and optimism that a new school year brings.  Everyone is excited, and I thrive on that energy.  I'm not the perky one in the halls right now.  I'm just one of the crowd.  It's amazing.

My prayer for this year, on the night before the first full day of school, is…

What's a month between friends?

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So, it's been a little while since I posted, but thank you for your forgiveness and understanding.
Let's go back to June 6th which was the last day I posted.  We'll just pretend it's only been a few days. It can be June 11th. We'll call this post, "Saying Goodbye- Phase One."
5 days.  3 events.  Dozens of goodbyes.
That's how I would have started the blog.  My heart was spinning.  It all started with Coralynn.  Her school didn't finish until June 15th, but her teacher left early to go the US for her son's graduation. We had her going away party, and I, of course, couldn't be there.  I had to work, but that didn't stop my heart from being deep in the emotion of the moment.
In October, Coralynn's pregnant teacher went on maternity leave.  I had mixed emotions about that. On one hand, I didn't prefer her teacher.  On the other hand, I had no idea who this sub would be, and I didn't love that the sub would leave in March when the…

It's been quite the week

I'm sorry it's been so long.

We've gotten completely unpacked.  The house is running well.  We have (scalding) hot water, wifi (in one room), and all the art on the walls.  I'll post pictures soon.

We've hosted 2 dinners, a violin recital (video forthcoming), and a surprise engagement party.

I've also walked my students- seniors- through the grief of losing their classmate's father suddenly a week before graduation.

I don't have words to describe the roller coaster.

So, I've remained quiet.

I have never been so mentally or physically or spiritually exhausted.

In theory, I'm the keynote speaker for graduation.  I was thrilled with the opportunity.  I love love the Class of 2017.  But now, I feel completely unqualified.  I've rethought my speech about 200 times. The Lord has clearly given me a phrase that is my focus.  So, I have 5 words.  If nothing else, I won't make the ceremony run long.

Sometimes, I feel like my joy didn't make i…

Packing Day Three

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Well, folks, this is really happening!!
We are in possession of the new house keys, so we actually are moving!!
The movers came Monday morning to begin packing up our apartment.  Apparently, we have a lot of stuff because when the team returned Tuesday morning, they brought along two more workers.


Just some of the over 300 boxes! And do you not love the way the piano is wrapped!?! 



The great news is that they finished packing today, so they can start unloading at the new house tomorrow!  And, hopefully, we'll be moved in by Friday night!!  I am so ready to make the new place "ours!"

Coralynn is 7!!!!!

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Today is Coralynn's birthday!!  
7 years ago she made her entrance into the world (15 days early),  and our lives haven't been the same!
Coralynn is a series of extremes: She's sensitive and sassy.   She's loving and explosive.   She's shy and talkative. She's ready to conquer the world as long as someone turns on the light for her.

1 year old!

Summer 2016
Summer 2015

                  Coralynn now with her "coming home" outfit                                  Summer 2011

Getting tubes!  Spring 2012
Sisters and Best Friends



My beautiful baby girl, 7-year-old version!

For real real

Ir's 4:25 am.

I'm sitting in my office on the bathroom floor because I woke up at 3:46, and I don't want to bother anyone else in the house.

The dog thinks I'm her personal cuddle buddy, so I have the computer propped up on my knees to prevent her from typing stuff that's irrelevant to this blog.

I have to laugh at the 2 of us sitting in here.  People tell me how I'm "superwoman" and that I "have it all together."  I think they know that is not true.  But I do wonder if they picture scenes like this when they picture my togetherness.

I wonder if they realize that most mornings I wake up with no recollection of going to sleep because I didn't intend to fall asleep.  I'm sitting here in my jammies.  No that's not really true.  I'm sitting here in lingerie because the evening was supposed to be about Tony and me.  The last thing I remember is Tony looking at something on his phone and me rolling over to put my glasses on the bed…

What's been going on...

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Well, just a little.

We have a house!  And we move on Monday!!  (Lord willing!)  So, we have all weekend to prepare!!  Oh, wait...  We don't actually.  Today, we've had to kids' performances, a soccer game, and a child headed to a beach trip.  Tomorrow is only Coralynn's birthday party, Senior Banquet, Chloe returning, and packing for a week at the hotel.  Sunday equals a half marathon, a couple of 5k, church, dance practice, a birthday dinner, and last minute preparations for the move. (And pretty much everything is last minute)

I'm not complaining.  I'm just explaining why the blog has been kind of quiet.

I don't want to leave you empty handed, though, so please enjoy Camilla's movie debut...


Three-Thing Thursday!

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Since it's been 7 days since I last blogged, we're going to go with 3 things from the last week!

1.  Running Away with Tony!

Life has been a tinch stressful, so I asked it we could run away together.  Tony not only said yes, but also decided that Chloe was old enough to stay home with the other kids.  That's a total blessing because she can also deal with the dog which is a major issue!




We stayed in a lovely hotel with the most amazing view.  I don't need roses or champagne, but Tony likes to spoil me with those.  I just wanted to exhale with my husband.  It was a success!
2.  Booking our Summer Vacation!
Three states,  Five flights. 2 camps.  1 AP summer institute.  33 days.
I am so excited that we are getting back to Georgia this year!  My heart feels most at home in GA, and I'm ready to be back with my people there.  The best part of the Georgia portion is that Tony will be with us the whole time.  That means we are actually going to get a family vacation during…

Another Little Thing

*I keep hoping that there will be exciting house news that I can share on the blog.  I've been told for the last several days that the lease will be available to sign soon.  I don't want to wait any longer, but I will because I want to make sure the information accurate!*

But, as I wait, the Lord is showing my heart some of His graciousness to us. I think the joy of every parent is seeing that your kids "get it."  That whatever value you've spent innumerable hours teaching has sunk in.  As we were house hunting, I got a glimpse that Camilla got it.

One of the priorities of Tony's and my life together is to love other people.  I want the people in our lives to know they matter.  I want our family to not be defined solely by blood relationships.  I want our home to be filled with love and laughter- and the more the merrier.  Tony, the introvert in the relationship, has been beyond understanding in my open-door policy.  He welcomes everyone I bring home.  He has…