It's the Little Things...

Just feeling the need to rejoice in the little things this afternoon...

~Carson hasn't had a migraine in a few weeks.         I didn't share about those because I was so angry he was having them.  My life has been forever altered my migraines, and I didn't want him to walk that road.  He had one in the spring, but then he had 3 in 5 days at the beginning of the month.  Every step I've taken toward clinging to Jesus turned into rage that the Father would allow this for my son.  Carson is doing better; Jesus and I are, too.
~My boss prays for me.       I've made no secret of the fact that this school year has been terrible for me.  The vast majority of that has been my reactions to events- my mental place.  Regardless of the reasons, it's been a difficult year.  Today, I had a meeting with my boss, and she asked me a pointed question about stuff going on in my life.  She looked me in the eye.  And, I instantly knew she cared.  Yes, she has some vested interest in…

I have no idea...

As I'm scrolling through Facebook tonight (when was the last time I had time to do that), I'm again reminded once again that I have no idea how forever works.

I look at people's pictures of their forever homes and their forever dreams coming true, and I realize my life works in moments.

Tony has been in the US this week.  He's been having meetings and networking.  He calls at night (or 5 times a day like today) with updates about what our tomorrow looks like.  Sometimes the tomorrow is two years away.  Sometimes tomorrow really is tomorrow.

I try not to reel from it all.  My stomach churns, and my heart races.  I've cried and yelled.  I've tossed and turned.  I get ready in the morning and try to cover the emotions of the night before in layers of makeup.  I teach history with my mind racing to wonder what the next page of my story will look like.  My kids come home and tell me about their days, and all I can do is ponder what the next day holds.

Sometimes, I l…

What A First Week! And Whales!

Last week, the first week of school, was something else.  Something like terrible.  Really, really bad. I wanted to quit.  The irony of that is not lost on me.  I wanted to quit when the Lord had already given me the word to finish well.  Nice, Lisa.

Saturday, we were scheduled to go whale watching because when we went last year, it was miserable weather, and we barely saw whales.  Even with that, it was an amazing time, but I wanted to try again and have whales and sun!  My family had almost zero interest.  Coralynn was all in, but everyone was else was on the spectrum ranging from "heck no" to "I guess I could muster the will to go."

So, I scheduled the trip.

Quick aside:  I'm a pushy person.  And I don't like to miss out on life.  This combination means that once I've made the decision to go find whales, you had better believe that we're looking for whales.

Of course, rainy season decided to start in July, so the weather has been miserable.  I k…

New Year's #2

One of the things I love most about our crazy expat life is that we get what feels like a second New Year's Eve.  We complete the school year in June, and then we take a break from life and vacation during July.  We return to the US and do whatever we want.  (Or whatever we can do around the kids' camps!)

I'll share some of my favorite moments about those soon, but tomorrow, 2017 part 2 starts. Tomorrow is the first full day of school for my students. Life is officially off pause.  Music lessons have started. Panamanian traffic has returned.  There's no sleeping in or staying up late.  Hopefully, exercise will come back soon.

I love the fresh feeling.  I love the new start.  I love all the potential and optimism that a new school year brings.  Everyone is excited, and I thrive on that energy.  I'm not the perky one in the halls right now.  I'm just one of the crowd.  It's amazing.

My prayer for this year, on the night before the first full day of school, is…

What's a month between friends?

So, it's been a little while since I posted, but thank you for your forgiveness and understanding.
Let's go back to June 6th which was the last day I posted.  We'll just pretend it's only been a few days. It can be June 11th. We'll call this post, "Saying Goodbye- Phase One."
5 days.  3 events.  Dozens of goodbyes.
That's how I would have started the blog.  My heart was spinning.  It all started with Coralynn.  Her school didn't finish until June 15th, but her teacher left early to go the US for her son's graduation. We had her going away party, and I, of course, couldn't be there.  I had to work, but that didn't stop my heart from being deep in the emotion of the moment.
In October, Coralynn's pregnant teacher went on maternity leave.  I had mixed emotions about that. On one hand, I didn't prefer her teacher.  On the other hand, I had no idea who this sub would be, and I didn't love that the sub would leave in March when the…

It's been quite the week

I'm sorry it's been so long.

We've gotten completely unpacked.  The house is running well.  We have (scalding) hot water, wifi (in one room), and all the art on the walls.  I'll post pictures soon.

We've hosted 2 dinners, a violin recital (video forthcoming), and a surprise engagement party.

I've also walked my students- seniors- through the grief of losing their classmate's father suddenly a week before graduation.

I don't have words to describe the roller coaster.

So, I've remained quiet.

I have never been so mentally or physically or spiritually exhausted.

In theory, I'm the keynote speaker for graduation.  I was thrilled with the opportunity.  I love love the Class of 2017.  But now, I feel completely unqualified.  I've rethought my speech about 200 times. The Lord has clearly given me a phrase that is my focus.  So, I have 5 words.  If nothing else, I won't make the ceremony run long.

Sometimes, I feel like my joy didn't make i…

Packing Day Three

Well, folks, this is really happening!!
We are in possession of the new house keys, so we actually are moving!!
The movers came Monday morning to begin packing up our apartment.  Apparently, we have a lot of stuff because when the team returned Tuesday morning, they brought along two more workers.

Just some of the over 300 boxes! And do you not love the way the piano is wrapped!?! 

The great news is that they finished packing today, so they can start unloading at the new house tomorrow!  And, hopefully, we'll be moved in by Friday night!!  I am so ready to make the new place "ours!"